You probs don't want to know what it is like to be insecure and self-conscious. Or at least you don't want to be the one who's insecure or self-conscious. It is like needing a significant other to validate yourself and not being able to stand by yourself nor being responsible of your own happiness. You think it is not worth to live if it isn't to stand beside this person. You think that without him, you are just an ugly shit, yet without any value. And one day, your super hero walks into your life and with his charming words, your heart skips a beat. Then he saves you from your forlorn situation and... oh I don't know how to explain it, but trust me, you don't feel like a human anymore. You feel like a half of human that completes another half. You are drawn into him, and he is the only thing running through your mind. You can't sleep, you can't eat. You constantly feel something in your stomach, and it is so good. The truth is you are feeling very lucking and filled up with your lover, but suddenly you remember the person you were before. Despite you now have a reason to live, you are so affraid that he ends up discovering the lack of value in you. Him finding out that you may not be the person he thinks you are, it is the last thing you could possibly want. As days pass, the uncertainty becomes drastically bigger and bigger. You listen to him making plans for you two, and you agree with him although you are convinced that it won't happen. You listen to him telling you how much he loves you and he won't give you up for another one, and even though you are under the spell of these sweet words, you are persuaded that he is wrong and one day, these words will lose their sense. The whole thing is about you feeling not good enough. You know you should relax and be proudly the amazing girl you are, but you lack so much of confidence in you. You are insecure. Self-conscious. And you end up ruining everything, messing everything up. You try to apologise and make him understand how depressed you are, but you fail and begin to act like an evil bitch to hide your weakness, and you make things even worse. And nothing is left in the end. Only regrets. Remorses.